It's the first week of 2007 and here I am sick in bed. "Separation" sickness, that's what I like to call it. I just feel so tired.
I remember an article I once read in my college newsletter. It was a love story about two friends. The ending was really sad because the guy ended up attending the girl's wedding. Well, obviously she didn't marry him. I am thinking of that story now because the guy mentioned that the girl looks like a cute dinosaur. And I am reminded of myself because that's how I sometimes see people...looking like dinosaurs. Don't think I'm mean. It's just that I love dinosaurs and if I say you look like one of my favorite dinos, that's a compliment.
And so, here I am thinking of my DinoSar. Maintaining a relationship entails so much patience that sometimes I just want to shout and give up. I argue that I don't need the added stress in my life. I get that enough from my boss. Do you ever get the feeling that sometimes you just want to walk away...just for a while - probably to close your eyes and get real rest, to forget issues and simply be quiet, relaxed and happy. We are only human and we get tired too. Yes, I am very happy and nothing can really top that and sometimes I find myself wishing that it's always just happiness and fun. But that's really not the case, huh? Or maybe it's just a little bit harder because we are miles away from each other.
I always pray that I will be the kind of person that my partner deserves. His God's best as he is God's best for me.
When all else fails and I feel like giving up, I just think of that cute dinosaur face, pick up the phone, and hearing his voice is such sweet delight!