On being a Mom

My friends would always tease me that I am the perfect Mommy. Girls dream of their wedding day, I dream of becoming a Mom. I praise God that my husband and I have been blessed with our little angel. My life has changed.

I enjoy being a Mom but I have to admit that there are days that I just want to scream my head off and leave. I never realized that taking care of a baby would be a full time job. Yes, I have waited for this moment but I was imagining raising my baby in Manila where help is easy to find. Living abroad, taking care of a baby, taking care of a husband, and running the household....it just isn't easy. But when these moments kick in, when I just want to cry, I look at our little Pi-so (that's chick for Ilonggo, she's our little chick!) and when she looks at me with her big eyes and gives me that beautiful smile, my heart melts and I whisper "I'm sorry" for thinking about giving up.

Being a mom now, I have new found respect for housewives everywhere. Working moms, stay at home moms - all mothers! It doesn't matter if you have a nanny or a housemaid to help you out. I think it's all the same. When I look at Sofia, I still get teary-eyed sometimes - to be responsible for a person's life, this little baby that depends on you so much - it is a gift from God and I am forever humbled that He has entrusted me with this precious gift.