2007 blues

* New Year's day, near Ninoy Aquino International Airport

Okay, who am I kidding?

I am depressed. Really, really sad. I just got home after dropping Cesar off at the airport. My two-week holiday vacation with my lovey is finally over. And on New Year's Day, no less. He called me from the airport and I told him no worries...I'm sooo okay. But when I got home, it suddenly hit me. He's not here anymore. Oh, I am so sad. Been crying my eyes out. I know he will scold me for this. Okay I get it. Look forward to better things ahead. And at least we have eachother, right? And I have always been a positive person. But this really sucks. Big time.

I miss Cesar. Trust me, maintaining long distance relationships (LDRs) can be so hard. But when you think of what lies ahead, you just can't help but smile because you know that it's all worth it.

I look forward to the day when we'll laugh at this silliness --- of airport drop offs and tears. I look forward to the day that we'll be together again - of hugs, "buki-ness", food trips, jfk moments, rollercoaster rides, and lots of love and laughter.

Oh, I can't wait. Maybe it's not so bad after all.

Again...who am I kidding?

1 comment:

g.knotee said...

i feel for you ercs. hang in there. i feel what you and cesar have are soooo worth it...compared to what i had eons ago. huwahaha. may 2007 be a good year for you both. ;P miss you.