if not now, then when?

He grabs my wrist
As my fingers turn into angry fists
And I whisper why can't you love me, I'll change for you
I'll play the part

And I say baby, so I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too

Sometimes, we make decisions and then we realize that we make mistakes too. We make wrong judgement calls. Sometimes, we want to do something but we just don't have enough courage to push through with it. You meet a person and you just know. You just know that this is the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. This is him --- the person I want to watch DVDs with, eat Japanese food with, eat ice cream with, laugh and cry with. This person makes me smile when I'm feeling down. All I have to do is close my eyes and think of his face, laughing at some silly joke or picturing him acting and dancing and being silly.

Anything less than mad, passionate love is a waste of my time.

People should learn to take chances. To grab opportunities and just let things happen. People should learn to be honest about their feelings. People should learn to speak their minds. People should learn how to say I love you and really mean it. People should learn how to say sorry and how to forgive. People should learn that it's okay to try rather than live with regrets and all these "what if" questions.

I should try, right?

4 comments:

Isa said...

you definitely should. i did and now i'm eating pizza with him. :)

Anonymous said...

no guts no glory!!!

Anonymous said...

Minsan talaga ganyan ang buhay pero malay mo kayo din naman pala sa bandang huli. Hope that you could fight for it!

Wheeeeeee

erica said...

=( i hope so too. thanks for the encouragement. wala pa rin akong ginagawa! aarrgghh.