*sigh*

Storm clouds all have gone away.
Can we stop this thing from sinking?
Because I wanna feel like I did.
And I wanna feel innocence.
And I want you to know,
And to feel in your soul,
That someone has come and gone.

*sigh*

All I wanted was a sweet distraction for an hour or two.
Had no intention to do the things we've done.
Funny how it always goes with love, when you don't look, you find.
But then we're two of a kind, we move as one.

We're an all time high,
We'll change all that's gone before.
Doing so much more than falling in love.
On an all time high,
We'll take on the world and win.
So hold on tight, let the flight begin...

boracay pix!

amirah's bday party

of uncertainties and decisions

Cold and unreal
Do you stare unbelieving
I finally crossed the line
Try to break
My masquerade
Do you feel betrayed
I kept this from you
Feeling so afraid
It would never be the same...

so many things i claimed, so many things i have to surrender. though i believe that things happen for a reason, i still catch myself searching for answers to my never-ending questions. relationships that i have to give up because of certain circumstances...is there no other way? here i am blogging away, feeling profound to avoid feeling depressed about certain decisions that i have made in my life. maybe it's all exaggerated. maybe i'm just making a big deal out of all these. i suddenly feel so old. i really, really need that vacation. i have to clear my mind. renew my energy.

aaarrgh.

Feeling so afraid...

holy, holy

this is turning out to be a really frustrating week. i can't wait to see the waters of punta fuego! coming from sunday's joint service, i was on a spiritual high - feeling sooo happy and perky all day. it's amazing how you really, really feel His presence amongst thousands of believers. and funny thing, i still can't comprehend that my friends - my long time friends - are now pastors! i feel a bit overwhelmed. does that mean i have to address them as pastor too? thinking about it, it is a bit weird.....(gen, guess mo kung sino ang pastor na..ay, grabe! di ko matanggap ata. i'm happy kaya lang....haaay - hint: UP Fair dates natin year 2000(?) tama ba yung year? basta yung pareho ng names!). it was really fun though. hanging out with new friends and simply basking in His love and presence. i soooo love victory! i'm glad i decided to be active in vcf again. though it's different this time. youth on fire days long gone. can't believe i've been with them for 9 years already!

unfortunately, some good things never last (or make that good feelings!). i got into a car accident last night...huhuhu :( i won't go into details anymore because i feel really, really bad about what happened. aaaargggh.

anyways, i gotta go and have my head checked. hahahaha. maybe that little jolt can finally clear up my mind about a lot of things!

by the way, it was all a big hoax. jack johnson never came to town. i was there last saturday in shang with john2. turns out it was just a "listening gig". oh well. i'll have my chance.

have a meaningful holy week everyone. i'll be down south so just text if you guys are nearby.

*sigh*

with everything in the past 
fadin faster and faster until it was gone 
found out i was losin so much more 
than i knew all along 

but everything i been workin for 
only worth nickels and dimes 
but if i had a minute for every hour that i wasted 
id be rich and kind 
id be doin fine 

without you i was broken 
but id rather be broke down with you by my side 
said without you i was broken 
but id rather be broke down with you by my side

breaking news....

thanks Tet for the news report! =P

gig!

hmmm...

But it's all relative
Even if you don't understand
Well it's all understood
Especially when you don't understand
And it's all just because
Even if we don't understand
Then lets all just believe

can't wait!!!!

yuppie!

i love my yuppie days with the lord family!

here's to more batches! yeah!

*sigh*

Ooh, I love the way you
Love the way you love me
There's nowhere else I'd rather be
Ooh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
I only wish that you could see the way you love me
The way you love me

It's not right
It's not fair
What you're missing over there
Someday I'll find a way to show you
Just how lucky I am to know you...

now showing

long overdue post. i love prison break! check out the new episodes! enjoy! =p

*sigh*

But I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be

aaarggh.

I am so frustrated. It was so surreal, I swear. I don't know why I felt that way. Aaargh. Was it just me? Or was it the same for him? Questions, questions - with no real answers. I have no clue!

Philip had a different take on the situation. And i TOTALLY disagree with him. But what if he's right?

Kaye, we seriously need to talk.

'nuff said.

of knick knacks and cheesecakes

Yesterday was really fun spending time with the old timers - Jaycie, Honey, Jerome, Chill, and JR. Laugh trip, super. Here's looking forward to another "reunion" with you guys! I sooo love TOSH cheesecake! Yeah! =p