Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head
I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can, drop away
And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
Of what was everything?
All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll ever be...yeah...
Uh huh...uh huh...ooh...I
know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a sun
In somebody else's sky, but why
Why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine?
changes
I haven't been so updated on my blogging. I'm in between jobs and since school started, I have little time sitting down in front of my computer. Well, except for my TV series (hahaha). I spent my Friday morning in Tagaytay with a couple of friends. We had breakfast at Josephine's and stayed in Taal Vista for the rest of the morning. It was so refreshing, communing with nature. In the afternoon, I dropped by the office to pick up some documents then I went to Dish in Quezon City to check out an event. South Border played that night. Pretty cool. I love Jay Durias! But he's not in this picture! It's Nor, Vince, and me.
Check out Reunion - another TV Series that's on top of my list! A lot of flashbacks since the story covers events from 1986 to 2005. Much like what I'm going through since I started the "clean my room" program - flashes of what has happened in my life especially since I've dug out most of the memorabilia that reminds me of moments gone by - good and bad. It's a nice feeling, actually.
Check out Reunion - another TV Series that's on top of my list! A lot of flashbacks since the story covers events from 1986 to 2005. Much like what I'm going through since I started the "clean my room" program - flashes of what has happened in my life especially since I've dug out most of the memorabilia that reminds me of moments gone by - good and bad. It's a nice feeling, actually.
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Well, I'm off once again to the land of dreams! Goodnight, dear friends! Here's hoping I catch some sweet dreams tonight!
words to live by
Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
porcupine thoughts
Let me down easy
No big song and dance
No long faces, no long looks
No deep conversation
I know the way we should spend that day
Take me to a zoo that's got chimpanzees
Tell me on a Sunday please
Don't want to know who's to blame
It won't help knowing
Don't want to fight day and night
Bad enough you're going
Don't leave in silence with no word at all
Don't get drunk and slam the door
That's no way to end this
I know how I want you to say goodbye
Find a circus ring with a flying trapeze
Tell me on a Sunday please
Don't want to fight day and night
Bad enough you're going
Don't leave in silence with no word at all
Don't get drunk and slam the door
That's no way to end this
I know how I want you to say goodbye
I'm feeling nostalgic and sentimental. Memories and moments going through my mind. I feel blessed to have experienced all the love. You will always hold a special place in my heart. There's a letter here somewhere that I wrote you a couple of months ago. Maybe one day, you will receive it. The music must go on. The dance must continue. Thank you for sharing your life with me.
No big song and dance
No long faces, no long looks
No deep conversation
I know the way we should spend that day
Take me to a zoo that's got chimpanzees
Tell me on a Sunday please
Don't want to know who's to blame
It won't help knowing
Don't want to fight day and night
Bad enough you're going
Don't leave in silence with no word at all
Don't get drunk and slam the door
That's no way to end this
I know how I want you to say goodbye
Find a circus ring with a flying trapeze
Tell me on a Sunday please
Don't want to fight day and night
Bad enough you're going
Don't leave in silence with no word at all
Don't get drunk and slam the door
That's no way to end this
I know how I want you to say goodbye
I'm feeling nostalgic and sentimental. Memories and moments going through my mind. I feel blessed to have experienced all the love. You will always hold a special place in my heart. There's a letter here somewhere that I wrote you a couple of months ago. Maybe one day, you will receive it. The music must go on. The dance must continue. Thank you for sharing your life with me.
hmmm...
There's a little black spot on the sun today
It's the same old thing as yesterday
There's a black hat caught in a high tree top
There's a flag-pole rag and the wind won't stop
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
It's the same old thing as yesterday
There's a black hat caught in a high tree top
There's a flag-pole rag and the wind won't stop
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
of christmas and gifting
Just a few highly recommended gifts for those working on a tight budget (like me – hello tuition fees, goodbye salary!). Read on.
Eight Gifts that do not cost a cent...
1) THE GIFT OF LISTENING
But you must REALLY listen. No interrupting, no daydreaming, no planning of your response. Just pure listening
2) THE GIFT OF AFFECTION
Be generous with appropriate hugs, kisses, pats on the back and handholds. Let these small actions demonstrate the love you have for family and friends.
3) THE GIFT OF LAUGHTER
Clip cartoons. Share articles and funny stories. Your gift will say, “I love to laugh with you”.
4) THE GIFT OF A WRITTEN NOTE
It can be a simple “Thanks for the help” note or a full sonnet. A brief, handwritten note may be remembered for a lifetime, and may even change a life.
5) THE GIFT OF A COMPLIMENT
A simple and sincere, “You look great in red”, “You did a super job”, or “That was a wonderful meal” can make someone’s day.
6) THE GIFT OF A FAVOR
Everyday, go out of your way to do something kind.
7) THE GIFT OF SOLITUDE
There are times when we want nothing better than to be left alone. Be sensitive to those times and give the gift of solitude to others.
8) THE GIFT OF A CHEERFUL DISPOSITION
The easiest way to feel good is to extend a kind word to someone. Friends are a very rare jewel. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, the share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us.
So say goodbye to shopping and give love this Christmas Day!
Happy Halloween everyone! (duh?!?)
Eight Gifts that do not cost a cent...
1) THE GIFT OF LISTENING
But you must REALLY listen. No interrupting, no daydreaming, no planning of your response. Just pure listening
2) THE GIFT OF AFFECTION
Be generous with appropriate hugs, kisses, pats on the back and handholds. Let these small actions demonstrate the love you have for family and friends.
3) THE GIFT OF LAUGHTER
Clip cartoons. Share articles and funny stories. Your gift will say, “I love to laugh with you”.
4) THE GIFT OF A WRITTEN NOTE
It can be a simple “Thanks for the help” note or a full sonnet. A brief, handwritten note may be remembered for a lifetime, and may even change a life.
5) THE GIFT OF A COMPLIMENT
A simple and sincere, “You look great in red”, “You did a super job”, or “That was a wonderful meal” can make someone’s day.
6) THE GIFT OF A FAVOR
Everyday, go out of your way to do something kind.
7) THE GIFT OF SOLITUDE
There are times when we want nothing better than to be left alone. Be sensitive to those times and give the gift of solitude to others.
8) THE GIFT OF A CHEERFUL DISPOSITION
The easiest way to feel good is to extend a kind word to someone. Friends are a very rare jewel. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, the share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us.
So say goodbye to shopping and give love this Christmas Day!
Happy Halloween everyone! (duh?!?)
highly recommended
I just finished watching on DVD a Warner Independent Film.
March of the Penguins.
You guys have to get a copy!
It's a really, really good film.
And yes, I cried!
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I resolved to call her up
A thousand times a day
And ask her if she'll marry me
In some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I reach the phone
Long before my tongue has tripped me
Must I always be alone?
A thousand times a day
And ask her if she'll marry me
In some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I reach the phone
Long before my tongue has tripped me
Must I always be alone?
hmmm...
Too many walls have been built in between us
Too many dreams have been shattered around us
If I seem to give up they'll still never win
Deep in my heart I know the strength is within
Too many dreams have been shattered around us
If I seem to give up they'll still never win
Deep in my heart I know the strength is within
Z002836
Today, I am officially a student again!
I had a horrible, terrible dream last night. It felt so real.
I decided to make a small research....
Your brain mind and spirit, while at rest "review" and analyze in it's own way long term, short term and spirit memory. It kicks around emotions, thoughts, ideas, actions and interactions of the short term memory. It has in it's background the trends of your life and philosophy to influence it. Your mind is also processing spiritual data, your beliefs, whether or not you violated them, your information gained through psychic intuition (we ALL have this to a certain degree) and of course, any communication from God. ALL THIS data, as well as your subconscious "reading between the lines" of what people do and tell you, is then processed unsupervised by you! All this data is a form of chaos, and your mind (like seeing images in wood grain or clouds) puts it all together in a form of visual "screenplay", a medley of sight, sound,emotion and imagined interactivity. The end result is.... You guessed it, a dream!
Nothing much gained from this information. I don't feel very perky today. I can't seem to shake this nightmare off.
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, you're gone, my fault, I'm sorry...
I had a horrible, terrible dream last night. It felt so real.
I decided to make a small research....
Your brain mind and spirit, while at rest "review" and analyze in it's own way long term, short term and spirit memory. It kicks around emotions, thoughts, ideas, actions and interactions of the short term memory. It has in it's background the trends of your life and philosophy to influence it. Your mind is also processing spiritual data, your beliefs, whether or not you violated them, your information gained through psychic intuition (we ALL have this to a certain degree) and of course, any communication from God. ALL THIS data, as well as your subconscious "reading between the lines" of what people do and tell you, is then processed unsupervised by you! All this data is a form of chaos, and your mind (like seeing images in wood grain or clouds) puts it all together in a form of visual "screenplay", a medley of sight, sound,emotion and imagined interactivity. The end result is.... You guessed it, a dream!
Nothing much gained from this information. I don't feel very perky today. I can't seem to shake this nightmare off.
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, you're gone, my fault, I'm sorry...
*sigh*
You need a friend
I'll be around
Don't let this end
Before I see you again
What can I say to convince you To change your mind of me?
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together baby
Free together baby
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'll be around
Don't let this end
Before I see you again
What can I say to convince you To change your mind of me?
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together baby
Free together baby
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to love you more than anyone
if not now, then when?
He grabs my wrist
As my fingers turn into angry fists
And I whisper why can't you love me, I'll change for you
I'll play the part
And I say baby, so I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too
Sometimes, we make decisions and then we realize that we make mistakes too. We make wrong judgement calls. Sometimes, we want to do something but we just don't have enough courage to push through with it. You meet a person and you just know. You just know that this is the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. This is him --- the person I want to watch DVDs with, eat Japanese food with, eat ice cream with, laugh and cry with. This person makes me smile when I'm feeling down. All I have to do is close my eyes and think of his face, laughing at some silly joke or picturing him acting and dancing and being silly.
Anything less than mad, passionate love is a waste of my time.
People should learn to take chances. To grab opportunities and just let things happen. People should learn to be honest about their feelings. People should learn to speak their minds. People should learn how to say I love you and really mean it. People should learn how to say sorry and how to forgive. People should learn that it's okay to try rather than live with regrets and all these "what if" questions.
I should try, right?
As my fingers turn into angry fists
And I whisper why can't you love me, I'll change for you
I'll play the part
And I say baby, so I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too
Sometimes, we make decisions and then we realize that we make mistakes too. We make wrong judgement calls. Sometimes, we want to do something but we just don't have enough courage to push through with it. You meet a person and you just know. You just know that this is the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. This is him --- the person I want to watch DVDs with, eat Japanese food with, eat ice cream with, laugh and cry with. This person makes me smile when I'm feeling down. All I have to do is close my eyes and think of his face, laughing at some silly joke or picturing him acting and dancing and being silly.
Anything less than mad, passionate love is a waste of my time.
People should learn to take chances. To grab opportunities and just let things happen. People should learn to be honest about their feelings. People should learn to speak their minds. People should learn how to say I love you and really mean it. People should learn how to say sorry and how to forgive. People should learn that it's okay to try rather than live with regrets and all these "what if" questions.
I should try, right?
saturday slam
Hundreds Dead in Pakistan-India Earthquake
ISLAMABAD, Pakistan - A powerful 7.6-magnitude earthquake near the Pakistan-India border Saturday reduced villages to rubble, triggered landslides and flattened an apartment building, killing hundreds of people in both nations. Pakistan's army called the devastation "a national tragedy."
This is really sad. There is so much tragedy happening around us. And I find myself worrying about petty things. Let's all say a prayer for the families left behind.
I'm home alone this weekend. Couch potato weekend for me! Thanks to my Smart friend, I have been introduced to really nice TV series. Try and check out my current favorite --- prison break! I have 6 episodes with me.
I also caught some episodes of Beverly Hills 90210. It was so funny. The Peach Pit. Brandon, Brenda, Kelly, Donna, Steve, David, Andrea, Dylan, Nat, and the rest of the gang. Hahaha.
Happy weekend everyone!
rain blues
The plan was to catch Brownman's gig at Xaymaca. But due to heavy rains, we all got stuck in the Shop (in Krus na Ligas) then later moved on to Sarah's (where did the time go?).
I hope that tomorrow's (or is it today's?) weather improves. I love the rain but it's difficult getting around when it's pouring hard. And since I'm still recovering, I can't help but feel like nature is echoing my depression. Oh well. I have to stop being analytical and spastic.
Well, I'm off to the land of dreams! Have a busy schedule later.
Goodnight!
Hakuna Matata!
brownout blues
Darkness.
There's no electricity here and yet, I have internet connection! How on earth did that happen? Still, I'll keep this short and sweet.
And now I'm finding out that I don't have much to say. Yes, I'm in a better place now. No more depression for me. Makes me feel old.
I like Kwerdas, by the way. I watched their gig last Tuesday @ Conspiracy. And I'll catch them later at Capones.
New occupation for me --- student. I have to live on allowance now.
This could be fun, don't you think?
There's no electricity here and yet, I have internet connection! How on earth did that happen? Still, I'll keep this short and sweet.
And now I'm finding out that I don't have much to say. Yes, I'm in a better place now. No more depression for me. Makes me feel old.
I like Kwerdas, by the way. I watched their gig last Tuesday @ Conspiracy. And I'll catch them later at Capones.
New occupation for me --- student. I have to live on allowance now.
This could be fun, don't you think?
chances are
We all met up in 6 Underground last night to pray and see if Liz would win the "watch the U2 concert @ Madison Square Garden" raffle sponsored by KLite. Sadly, she wasn't really qualified, although she sang her lungs out (more like recited the lyrics, but hey, she's got balls!) on air. Mainly because she forgot to comply with one teeny requirement -- secure a US Visa.
We had fun, listening to Overtone (wrong spelling...?) and updating each other about our boring lives ( ang pait ng kape! hahaha ). Ryan gave me "The Man Show" dvds. Maybe I'll check it out. I'm still high from watching Lost season 2!
Liz didn't win (obviously) but her officemate, Arner, who was with our group too, won the all-expense paid trip to NYC! And a U2 concert ticket! Wowee!!! We couldn't help but scream and laugh! Lucky fellow!
By the way, today is Mr. Gordon Sumner's birthday. My boss passed by his vineyard last week when he was vineyard hopping in Europe. Another lucky fellow!
Well, happy birthday Sting! Thank you for the music! Rock on!
Liz went home with a mug from one of the sponsors. There you have it --- another lucky person.
who's the greatest?
October 1, 1975.Celebrated lines of Mr. Ali, " a killer and a chilla and a thrilla when I get the gorilla in Manila! "
And so Ali Mall in Cubao was built. Haha.
( source: Manila Standard Today )
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